Time to Panic!

Last night I read Psalm 90, and verse 12 really jumped out at me, "Teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom." The whole psalm talks about how little our time is here on earth. How we are like grass, can be swept away as in a flood, how "we fly by". By the time I got to verse 12, I was seriously in a state of panic! I was feeling as if I'd wasted my life up until this point. Maybe I had.

I thought about all the hours I've watched TV or read books (mind you, neither of these things are wrong in themselves). I thought about all the friendships that have come and gonewithout any effort on my part to introduce them to Christ. I remembered how Jesus' name rarely passes my lips other than to thank Him for my food. I thought about all the days I could have turned off the TV or computer and told my kids how God created everything and loved them so much.

Can you see why I was in panic mode?! Our lives are SO short. It's the truth whether it feels like it or not. I knew I had to do something immediately. It was nearly midnight, so I didn't have a lot of options for the time being. It occurred to me that the only thing I could do was pray. Being a stay-at-home mom I, of course, have the opportunity to minister to my family, but I don't have a lot of opportunity to reach "the masses".

I was so relieved to remember the power of prayer. Sometimes I feel as if I'm stuck, that I can't change the world just yet. God is the One who will change the world and I have a direct line! This really was a turning point for me spiritually. You'd think I would remember something so simple, but I didn't.

My secondary revelation was about ministering to my family. My husband has certainly not achieved heavenly perfect and my kids aren't even Christians yet. There is so much kingdom work I can do here in my very home.

Back to what I started with, "Teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom." I want to be reminded daily how short my life is. I want that "panic" (I'm glad this isn't me talking to you in person, or there would be way too many air quotes to handle) to drive me to change my life and the lives of those around me. I want pray like I've never prayed before. I want to tell my children about Christ's love daily. I hope by reading this, you have realized that it's TIME TO PANIC!